对你的思念

就这样你离开我也就快第8个月了.
在天堂过得还不错吧, 帅老公.:')
我很想你, 你知道么?



因为全世界都知道，我会永远爱着你,.

工作很压力, 但我知道我是不会放弃的, 因为我知道我不是这么容易被打败的:)
好想念那每一晚偷偷和你聊电话的感觉.
偷偷哭, 偷偷笑.

我对你的想念也只好收在我心里最深的地方.

darling, 我的刘海长了耶, 你最想看的不是?

亲爱的王子, 你的公主我, 为你而美. :')

16号, 爸爸的生日, 你离开的第三个月.

darling, 今天是你离开我的第三个月了.

我一样没变, 除了想你,

还是很想你.

很准, 今天也是爸爸的生日,

不知该开心还是难过.

只好挂着你曾在我脸上挂上的笑容过整天.

亲爱的, 那里的天使一定很漂亮吧？

不准你坏蛋,只能爱我知道么？

你是我的！

Darling, 我想和你说声对不起,

因为每晚还是不乖,

只要在床上抱着你的冷衣，就会哭得七七八八.

你曾说过，我的眼泪属你. 没有你的允许,眼泪 不准掉.

但到最后, 它还是不听话, 掉了下来.

还记得在你离开我的那一天,

你表姐打来说你离开时, 我笑得很大声.

然后一直不断从复说

‘‘不可能！她很爱我的,快叫她起身, 不然我会生气！她不会离开我的...’’

‘‘她说每天都要我陪，我没离开她, 她不可以离开我！叫她起身！’’

你表姐也只好,不断地叫我冷静.

去到马六甲, 我双手抖着害怕面对.

你很多朋友都说我很坚强, 忍着不哭.

呵··

但在你姐姐妹妹面前, 我还是崩溃了.

站在你旁边的我, 一直要把你叫醒,

闹着要你帮我擦干眼泪,要你叫我''老婆'',  

但你, 睡得太熟了..

努力地擦干自己的眼泪, 告诉自己, 你不喜欢看到我哭.

              '' 不哭, darling ,我乖我不哭.你快起身...... ''

darling你家人都很疼我.

果然真, 我是你唯一带回家的女生, 谢谢你.

在你离开的那一天我才知道,你全家都知道我是你女人了.

很多你的朋友,也很多facebook的朋友 都来看你了.

到了晚上，你家人带我去吃，也我带回你家,

 如果你能看到你家人和朋友都疼我的那一幕, 你一定会, 很开心.

 到了家, 我和你妹妹翻开了你的旧照,

一起说你的坏话，哭笑不得.

妹妹还说怕你生气,说不知你会不会骂她,

最后才发现，原来我们都一时 忘了，你不在了.

妈妈叫我睡在你床上

抱着你的枕头,  有你的味道, 让我默默哭了整晚.

早上起身时，

以为是自己发了恶梦

找了你整间家却找不到你,

才知道你, 真的离开了.

抱着妈妈，我为你谢谢了她和爸爸一路的照顾.

妈妈摸摸我的头，告诉我说，要坚强.

我也告诉了姐姐和妹妹, 其实, 你都很爱她们.

darling, 我一直都有戴着我们的戒指， 你呢？

记得让天上的美女天使看看我们的戒指,

告诉他们，你有老婆的,知道么？

亲爱的宝贝天使,这张照,
是我们当时没想过会是最后一次牵着彼此的手拍的

我知道你，会去到一个很远很远的地方，

但我也知道，你会一直都在.

 请你, 守护我.
我相信,如果我们再次相遇, 那一次的我们,就永远不分开了.
所以

我会为你坚持下去，一直到我们再相遇的那一天.


我，答应你.

不是说, 不准叫你老公,直到你好起来么？

现在你一定很帅很好了，对吧

.........老公........

 

爸爸，生日快乐, 我爱你.

Darling,

Baby boy,

Sweetheart,

Hubby,

我想念你的那可爱傻乎乎的声音.

我想念你那温暖的拥抱

我想念你那双爱亲亲我的嘴唇

.

我想念, 我们的一切.

i'll love you, forever.

My dearest Darling in heaven

Baby,

It has been almost 3 months, since you're gone.

How are you there, in heaven?

I never have this courage to write this to you, because i know, i'll cry again.

But now, i'm trying to be brave, blogging again, for you.

I've changed my career, working as an interior designer now. I heard your sister and dar dar told me that you always wanted to be a designer uh?

**smile. baby,dont worry bout me okay, im working and going on with life for you ,now.

Like i'd promise, Be your brave darling girl, Supergirl. right?

Darling, i'm so tired, of everything. i wanna tell you lots of things that i'm going through my life.
But honey... you're just, too far away and it takes me years to go over there u know?

Darling, i really miss those midnight calls we used to have. Laughing and crying together over the phone. Do you, baby? Will you be missing me , too?

Why did God take you away from me? Mind asking Him for me ? Why didnt He allow us to have such a perfect love?
But it's okay, we'll still meet, hug, and kiss again, one day right.... ?

I miss you darling, i miss you, Badly.







Thank you for being a Beautiful Chapter of my life, hubby.



Be a good girl up there in heaven okay ?









i love you, my love.

不在乎过去. 只在乎和你在一起的未来

还记得''老爷'' 这称呼的原来是因为我曾告诉你说我觉得叫老公很老.

呵`

老爷`

我这真的很想你.

这blog我很久没动了.

看回过去, 才发现那些都不重要了所以我把很多写过的过去都删除掉了.

darling没有你的日子安静很多

没有人在我难过生气或累的时候疼我了

没有人在能像你那样逗我笑到流泪了
没有人会陪我聊到三更半夜的电话了

没有人会在半夜打来说想我了

没有人会闹着说要我疼叫我不要看戏了

但慢慢的darling我习惯了，

我学会了独立因为我曾答应你会为你好好照顾自己,不让你担心

baby dont worry, im fine. i just missed you badly.

其实......到现在我最忘不了的是当你知道你病的那一晚

你说的那句话：

''我们都不相信永远但如果我走的话，darling 要记得我永远都爱你.''

哭得眼睛肿肿的. 我恨你那一句.

你不会离开我的，你听到了没????

折了999粒星星，每一粒都是边祈祷边折，期待着你康复后折给我的第1000粒.

在我答应你做你女人的时候你答应了说会照顾我不要让我再受伤

所以不管会有多久，我会等你,

你一定要乖乖好起来好么老爷?

别忘了你说过要帅帅和我一起拍婚纱照.

DARLING I LOVE YOU, HOLD ME. DONT LET GO.

一秒也好

我關上了門　最後一次聽你說我們
熟悉變陌生　把我往記憶裡扔
我應該習慣　你離去的眼神　才能讓失去你　變得更完整

窗外的街燈　還在努力掩飾著早晨
我的嘆息成全了　整夜的苦悶
我該努力　習慣這樣的氣氛　才發現失去了　愛不用再等

我知道　我的一切你已不想要　繼續在乎只會讓你想逃
我不相信這全是種煎熬　原來離去是那麼難預料
找依靠卻沒有我想要的好　我的等待換不到你擁抱
只好讓回憶　短暫的炫耀　原來任性對彼此都　不好

清晨的街燈　翻開了城市中的心悶
我的等待成全了　整夜的苦悶
我努力在　你的回憶裡狂奔　才了解失去了　愛不用再等

多想再一次　緊緊的擁抱　就算給我　一秒也好
一秒可以給多少　我都想要

WHAT? the word Allah is for islam?

Who says the word Allah is only for Islam people?? Goodness, the word Allah in the Arab translation means '' GOD'' so who said that ONLY Islamics can use the word Allah???!! even the Arabians don't even mind us Christians using this word, so why these kia si bother so much?

It's fine if you guys get mad because of that stupid reason. But why have to burn down our church!!! now there are 10 churches been burned down! In the Al-Quran did it say that you can burn people's place of worship???

UNFAIR!! WE CHRISTIAN RESPECT YOU PEOPLE SO WHY CANT YOU GUYS PAY SOME RESPECTS??

speehless

I'm sad due to somethings and someone.

Why do you always have to say that you're the best?

Why do you wanna compare your studies with me?

Why do you always wanna care in whatever things i do?



i know that care for me, you're the best, you're good in studies, but why you just can't .....? haih, You know that since young I'm not a book lover! so don't compare la!

i just hate the way you treat me sometimes. Who am i with is none of your prob..why do you keep asking me the same question? Why care so much? When you know that im active in sports did you ever say welldone? you just know how to say '' you're young, that's why. i'm more active than you last time'' which i know you're not active at all. fine, i dun care.


But the thing that i hate the most is people looking at my things which are so private !!

Can't you just stop it?

i hate it. Can you just let me be myself?! crap! why are you so ....? DAMN.


you know, sometimes there are things to care, and sometimes, you just have to let me be me myself..

GOSH