Down Town East.

At first i don't wanna go to the Down Town East because it's far away, we have to take mrt from Tiong Bharu Plaza to Pasir Ris..

Hm, but then since i promised my sis to accompany her..i don't wanna break promise.

Well, at first was kinda lonely,but it's quite fun there, cause there were lots of games and stuffs there.

I met 2 Cambodian girl, Guess what, one of them, her name was teresa Lay! gosh, same name, just different spelling. Another girl's name was Xiao Hong, she's cute, she came to singapore because she was sad she broke up with her boyfriend. The funniest part is the 1st Question they asked me was '' Em.. are you korean??'' hahaha~ But yet i still don't think i look like korean..huhu~


We became friends and We had fun together. I tried to cheer Xiao Hong up because i know it's worthless crying for that guy who hurt her so bad. So we went and play water though we never bring any extra clothings. haha, funnny.

RELI HAPPY TO MEET THEM.
THEY WERE FRIENDLY..

THANK YOU, TERESA LAY AND XIAO HONG.

When you loose someone you love.

“They say the sweetest word is I love you, and the hardest is good bye! but what if you discovered that the person you love does not realy love you but just need you… would you choose the bitterness of goodbye or choose to hear the sweetest lie…”

When you decide to let go, do you really succeed in letting go?



The hardest part of losing a loved one is to accept the fact that they’re gone and might never come back again. There are things that will always remind you of your togetherness…the places you’ve been, his or her favorite food you used to cook for him or her, expressions you used to hear from him or her and songs you’ve both loved to sing.

It’s okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, you won’t cry for the same reason anymore. Learn and live. Love is the most wonderful thing one can offer, so be smart enough to give the love in your heart to the one who really deserves it.

sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It’s never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but, “WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT”.

THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS.



“YOU DON’T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING”. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

“IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEAR WASHES AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU”. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

“IT’S TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL”.

LOVING SOMEONE IS NEVER A SIN.


When there is love, there is always sacrifice.

You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone
who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

“CHEERS!!!”

I feel alone.

Last year after my last break up i go through Xmas alone. Mum and dad was in Australia. Then Chinese new year i celebrated it at my brother in law's house which is darn boring..



It's not that i have no friends but it's because i was in Singapore my sister has been very strick to me, i can't go out as often as i want..

Fine, bad luck enough for me last year.

This year, even worse luck came to me.



-SPM

-BABY GETS LOST


yup, It's very true that i will be celebrating with my family. But I will still lonely when I see mummy have daddy, sister have brother in law, even my brother have girlfriend...


ME? ALONE..??



HOW WILL MY XMAS BE THIS YEAR???

WORRIES

All of us know that after SPM exams we will be super free hanging around with friends, having fun, going for trips..since it will be a super long holiday.

BUT the thing is ... I just don't know why..


I'M WORRIED..!!


I know that it's still not the right time to get worried yet ,
but well..
i just cant help myself thinking bout the things that i wanna do in the future.

I don't even have the heart to enjoy so much.
I'm worried bout my stupid SPM results.
I'm worried bout the course to take. I feel like going to KL's KBU colleague to study but... the problem is...


DOES MY PARENTS AND SISTER ALLOW??

I'm a little baby girl for them, since I'm the youngest in the family, so how are they going to allow me to go far from them..?
Sure they'll think I'm going there to go clubbing or whatever hack..
But no matter what i still need to further my studies right..?

My sister always ask me to go Singapore and study...
BUT JIE~
YOU KNOW THAT STUDYING IN SINGAPORE WILL BE DARN EXPENSIVE SO WHY DON'T LET ME CHOOSE BETTER COLLEAGUE???

GOSH.
FRANKLY SPEAKING. I HATE to be over protected..


I'm sick thinking of my Piano grade8 exam next year..!! Wanna study also have to get stuck with my piano!
Everyone knows that studying Piano in KL or Singapore sure will charge you more expensive...And that is why I'm stuck here! = =



GOSH!
I REALLY NEED A BREAK~

today..

10.30 a.m - WOKE UP, WASH UP. ( Actually i woke up at 10 but i roll on the bed for half an hour..haha)


11.00 a.m - Clean my room and the whole house


12.30 p.m - Called my friends up to see whether they wanna '' yam cha''.


01.30 p.m - Went out with friends and hang out with them



At first everything was fine, We went to MCD to hang out.
After that we went to KBox. Suddenly my friend started crying on my shoulder and said she was hurt by her bf. She cried so hard but i can do nothing. All i did was hugging her and comforting her.
I can see that she's acting happy in front of us but she's crying in the inside. But yet..All i can do is accompany her wherever she goes, make her smile and make her feel better.


Around 4 pm we went to the cyber cafe. I saw someone. It hurts me alot. But i tried to pretend like I'm happy and I'm OK. Looking silently at that person from behind even hurt me more.




Tried to forget everything. BUT i just cant. I HATE THIS SISTUATION.




Now my mood is 0%.

I just feel like my life is miserable.

Sometimes life gets complicated.

But all i can do is...


TAKE IT EASY AND DUN GIVE A DARN ABOUT IT. LOOK AT THINGS IN THE SIMPLE WAY.

AND BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK.

FOREVER? TRUST?

Talking bout the word forever means nothing to me.
What does it mean by Forever?
Well, it's just kind of sweet quotes. And for me, 'forever' is just Bullshit.
People say ' I love you forever' but 98% of people will leave with all sorts of reasons.. I hate having complicated life. And since my last break up..im fucked up and i just dun trust ANYONE 100%ly anymore!

Go ahead and ask me why i can't trust? Simple reason, 1st is because i know that this world is FULL of lies!! 2nd, its because of how the people around me (family, friends, and whoever hack) lied to me.. I'M not the stupid girl i used to be, knocking my head even if people tell me lies.I just hate lies. And i hate people whom come to me and say ''i love you forever'', including if i have a bf. DUN TELL ME THAT. It's just bullshit! i rather hear the word ''Always''. but PLEASE..not ''forever''.. i dunwana hear it.

Spm is going to END!!

Today i just took economy test. Well there was complicated questions which i don't even understand but anyhow...hmm...i did my best.(But i still might fail because that is my weakest subject among all) Huhu~
After having paper 1 in half an hour, me and 10 of my friends went out to have breakfast At the 'Hang Out Cafe'. It was fun b'cause my friend drove the car super fast and she made all kind of silly things while driving which made us laughed like hell!
Later on we arived late to school and it was so awkward when the whole class looked at us walking in.. But yet me and friends still smiled like a nutcase like nothing ever happened.

UNFORGETTABLE SISTUATION..xp


After exam then we talked about what are we going to do after graduating our form 5.
Then only we noticed that after next monday after our last test, we most probabily won't be hanging out with each other and we also realise that school life is so much fun with friends around us. Some of us were classmates since primary school and now SPM is going to separate us from each other.. Your friends will be studying or working in other places and you'll not see them often anymore.


Next Monday i'm going to have my Bahasa Cina paper! KILL ME!! *&^%^&$!! I HATE CHINESE lar...HATE IT ! HATE IT! HATE IT!

Mummy...you want me to take chinese paper and now they changed the exam format, How do you want me to die...??! huhu~ ><




P/S: Ppl who are good in chinese..i envy you..><... And also you guys who are still studying... I know..everyone will say '' School sucks'' because of homeworks or some insane teacher but guys...ACTUALLY School life is quite great! Graduating will feel much more freedom.. BUT your life will feel empty without your buddies and friends .. so


APPRECIATE SCHOOL LIFE!!!

我愛他 lyrics

他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊

對他唯一遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*


如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛


*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*


如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

Melacca day..^^

Two weeks more to go we're going to finish our SPM and graduate so me and my classmates decided to go Malacca yesterday. Was kinda fun cause all of us went by car and the funniest part is when we get lost there. Cant find our way out to the city. huhu~
When we arrive there the first thing we did was eat eat and eat!! Was so hungry cause we havent eat since morning..= = Then we went and buy movie tickets first, we only manage to buy the 4.20pm ticket since that is the earliest ticket for the movie ''phobia''..
While waitng for the movie to start we went shopping and i bought a watch and two salsa nail polish for my mummy and coffee powder for my daddy cause he loves coffee and chocolate alot.
We took alot of pictures together while having fun and crazy-ing in the shopping complex.. I got to find that the movie was not bad..kinda scary cause i never watch horror movie in a cinema before and that was my first time..hahaha..

We started our journey back home at around 8pm and arrive around 10pm cause we had dinner together on the way back.. I ate laksa and it taste delicious.. ^^


LOVE MY BUDDIES AND FRIENDS.

Dreams turns out to be Nothing

I'm an active girl and i love sports alot. But the sport i love the most is Karate. I used to put karate in the First place in my life.
I'd learned karate since i was Ten, and the whole family knows that I'm so in love with it.. I enjoy going for training with my seniors and team mates whenever i feel free..
Well, Going to all sorts of tournaments give me the confidence and the spirit to fight. My coach trained me very hard and push me to the limit because he always wanted me to be the first best johore fighter. I'm so glad that at last I'm the best johore girl fighter and I'm one of the youngest state fighter. i felt so proud to represent my state..

My dream is To be a Fighter and go for WKF(World karate Federation)

Until one day i meet 'Someone' and fell in love with her. I loved her alot and i started to spent my time together with her more than anything else in my life.. That is when i started to notice that I'm starting to turn my back towards karate and I never go for training like i used to anymore.( Coach i know i let you down and Honestly i felt very sorry to you.)

Days passed by so fast and we broke off just like that. I cried for months whenever i thought about her and that is when i wanted to continue my karate life and go for my dreams.
But then things turns out to be different.

My mum and my sister don't allow me to go for training anymore.I was so pissed off but i can do nothing..Mum said that it's time to let go of karate since I've stopped for training for so long..

I bet that all Mums wants their daughter to be like a princess.
Even my sisters want me to be a baby sister.

but I'M NOT..!!

MUM, YOU ALWAYS WANTED ME TO BE GIRLISH LIKE OTHER GIRLS, YOU STOPPED ME FROM KARATE AND SPORTS JUST WITH EXCUSE THAT YOU DON'T WANT ME TO GET INJURED.
MUM I KNOW YOU LOVE ME BUT I ALSO HOPE THAT YOU'LL BE UNDERSTANDING.

MY DREAMS are gone just like that. I love karate alot. i felt jealous looking at my opponent going for tournaments and take away the gold medals that once was mine..
I bleed, i get injured, i cried,during my training. And the tournaments that i went through gave me strength.I've learned alot about discipline through this 8 Years and it's hard for me to let it go.


P/S: Go chase your dream and never give up of something that you always wanted .Also never give up your dreams just because of LOVE because you'll end up regretting when he/she leaves you.

Little Pocoyo!

I was watching tv with my little nephew and my baby niece today evening.. I wanted to watch horror movie but well both my nephew and niece wanted to watch Playhouse Disney so badly...I never watch cartoons for a long time but wat to do? No point to argue with kids right.. So i just went and changed the channel for them..
Then i saw this animation named POYOCO!
Gosh Poyoco was so cute and hell i fell in love with him~

SPM days~

Gosh at last i already finished my BM, BI, and Sejarah paper! I'm now so damn worry bout the results! But anyhow i know i did my best. DAMN, i don't even know WTF the sejarah paper was asking about..All i can do is i juz make all kind of stories in it..huhu~ God save me~
Hm, the funniest part is when the students open up the Sejarah paper..some of them straight away yawn. haha! Then you can get to see some of the students waiting for time to pass, because during SPM you only can leave the exam hall after half an hour. Well the exam starts at 2pm and ends at 4.30pm. But when the clock ticks to 2.30pm half of the students from the exam hall is gone....= =
I was still there tryin to solve the essay questions..I find it hard but yet i stil tried to do the papers. Then around 3pm...I left the exam hall. My classmates came out around that time too and guess what happened? We went for McD together!! We ate there and enjoyed our meal like nothing happened..(Well all i can say is actually all of us were actually worried but we're just trying to chill out.) PRESSURED! PRESURED! PRESSURED! We still have 7 papers to go and Monday we're goin to have Maths paper..huhu~ God please help me..

SPM? GOSH!

Spm is really really near...gosh, i still have about 10 days to go...
Well i found myself very pressured nowdays,but yet i still have to face it.. I kept doing science and maths exercises this few weeks, asking my friends to help me out with it, hoping that i can get good results in it... The subject i hate the most is ''pendidikan moral'' !! I don't understand why do we need to have moral papers? And then you'll get to find out those art class gangsters getting A's in that subject...(while they're still havin those attitude problems).. Fine, and now im havin headache thinking how to memorise those '' Nilai & Definisi ''... mum and dad keep pushing me to the end, asking me to keep studying ..(what to do, my dad used to call me chicken brain because i always forgot things dat i should do.. = =) Anyhow, i just have to DO MY BEST and pray, so that i would have a good luck on that one month period.

I love the meaning of this song..i will be..

There's nothing i could say to you,

Nothing i could ever do do make you feel,

Wat you mean to me

All the pain , the tears i cried,

Still you never said goodbye and now i know,

How far you'd go

I know i let you down
And it's not like that now,

This time i'll never let you go

I will be all that you want, and get myself together,

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, i'll be with you forever,

To get you through the day and make everything

okay

I thought that i had everything

I didn't know what life could bring

But now i see, honestly

You're the one thing i got right

The only one i let inside

Now i can breathe 'cause you're here with me

And if i let you down, i'll turn it all around

'Cause i would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together

'Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, i'll be with you forever

To get you through the day, and make everything

Okay

Without you, i can't breathe

I'm not gonna ever,ever let you leave

You're all i got, you're all i want, oh

Cause without you i don't know what i'd do

I can never, ever live a day without you

Here with me, do you see you're all i need?

And i will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, i'll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything

Okay